Jenna cancelled RICC

I am so humbled by the amount of people sending me messages and checking in on me after finding out that Jenna cancelled RICC. She must have gotten word that Mr. Clever was coming to see her.  😜😜 I love that so many of my friends knew how much it meant to me to meet her.

I’m sad, but that is the risk you take when going to a con for a guest. I’ve never done that in the four years of Conlife. It’s a gamble. But the way I see it, it’s like anything else. When you buy a con ticket you don’t know if you will get sick, have to work, get a flat, have a miserable time, etc.

Eventually I will get my Clever/Clara pic. For now, I am happy with the array of lovely Clara’s that I have met over the years!

At the Pandorica
Clever and Clara at the Pandorica Restaurant.
Regen 2018
Clever and Clara at Regen.
SMF
All the Claras at Super Megafest
Pandorica road trip
“Jenna Cancelled” “Whaaaaat?”
Mad Hatter Ball
Night out on the town for Clever and Clara at the Wonderland Ball

 

 

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CosplayZine Feature

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I am thrilled to be featured alongside some amazing cosplay artists.  It is also a huge honor to be responsible for seeing “Mr. Clever” on the cover.

Thank you CosplayZine.

 

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Look What You Made Me Do

I haven’t written a blog post in a while. Recently I uploaded some new photos from a photo shoot and there were a few comments that could only be described as trolling so I thought it was time to get something off my chest.

It wasn’t just the trolls that made me decide to write this. After a few “Facebook friends” made their comments, I doubted myself, so in a moment of weakness, I deleted the whole album.

 

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Hammond Castle, Gloucester, Ma.

Doing that shoot was incredibly hard for me. You may not realize it when you see me running around a con with grapes and rope but I am very self-conscious. And I delete far more than I post. And in that brief period of self-doubt after the trash people thought they had a right to tell me what I could or couldn’t wear, I thought it was just easier to delete it, delete myself, off the screen, and deal with all later. Or not, depending on how I felt.

After some soul-searching, and some convincing by my close friends, my partner, and the wonderful photographer, the album is now back up.

The reason I reposted it isn’t just because I didn’t want the trash people of the internet to win, but the larger reason is that when I see these photos I am reminded that even though these pics are “of me” they aren’t just about me.

I think a lot of people in the cosplay community will agree with me – when I see a professional cosplay photo I see a team effort that goes into making those beautiful photos. And when I share mine I am not only sharing my own art (like the cyberplanner) that I have painstakingly created (with the emphasis on pain) but the art and skill of my friends and colleagues.

 

 

 

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“Tell me, does it have a sort of remote triggery thing?”

There are so many people that have helped me over the years, that have also invested time and talent into helping me make Mr. Clever come to life in these photos and in person.

 

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“Me. Cyberplanner. Mr. Clever”

 

The insane number of amazing photographers alone. It is not easy to capture (and edit) a wonderful photograph. It is even harder to work with someone like me, who has severe anxiety in front of the camera. Cosplay photographers often go unnoticed and are truly the unsung heroes of our community. The photographers that I have met and worked with over the years deserve a medal for putting up with me. Many times, they have worked with me for free, so yes of course, I am going to share their photos everywhere (and give them credit as often as possible).

Or the hair stylists that have helped me over the years. Running into the salon with pictures of Matt. “This is the color I need”. And the random make-up artist we met while in NYC for NYCC that color matched me and taught me how to put make up on for photos. Never would have known any of that if not for her.

And the friend who felt bad that I couldn’t wear the Abbyshot coat who went and got fabric for me. And the other friend who made me the coat that I wear now. This coat is amazing. The curator from the DW experience loved it. The person who made it should be proud of herself.

 

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Just my standard warm up pose.

 

Even down to the tattoo artist who worked with me to make my cybermite tattoo come to life.

And that doesn’t even cover the emotional challenges that people help me work through: how hard it is for me to overcome the fear of cameras, the challenge of my body image issues, getting into character, overcoming the severe pain that I am in all the time now, and with this shoot in particular there was the added fear of because of my injury I was terrified that I was going to be unable to move.

 

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Resting after a long day of Upgrading.

 

Everyone knows how much this character and cosplay means to me. I have lost much in 2017. For a fleeting second, there was the thought that I could lose that too, and that was devastating. And I know there are people that don’t get that Mr. Clever is both my first and last cosplay. It is who I am and I cannot imagine cosplaying as anyone else.

 

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Hammond Castle, Gloucester, MA

 

But trolls will be trolls and after battling my own demons and winning, at least this time, I have taken the trash out, and that album is back up. Not just because I need it, or because Mr. Clever is who I am, or because I don’t want to let the haters win, but because all those other people deserve to have their work talked about too.

 

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Great shot of my tattoo.

 

So the last thing I want to do with this blog is thank (some) of those many people and give everyone who reads this a way to connect with them and make some of that cosplay magic for yourself.

 

Above photos were taken by the amazing Vignette of

https://www.facebook.com/sauvagephotographystudio/

Not enough “thank you”‘s for the Rodster, Rodney Brown. The first photographer I met, always supportive and always got my back.

https://www.facebook.com/1stpersonshooter/

MAJOR hugs to my stylists over the years – Ashley, Alicia and of course

https://www.instagram.com/saraibyday/

And my very first professional shoot:

https://www.facebook.com/JuarezFilmsandPhotography/

And of course John of

https://www.facebook.com/creativenorthshore/

 

 

 

Mr. Clever goes to the Night Circus

Night Circus Ball 2017

 

The Hawthorne Hotel and Creative Salem are hosting a Night Circus themed ball tonight, so I decided to adjust my Mr. Clever cosplay , as it were.

Cane with chess piece and cybermite, little chess pieces and cyber trinkets thrown in. Complete with my red/black cybernetics with blinking red lights.

Should be an amazing night!